Me vs myself

Take time to read myself... My childhood entertainment was in the lonely pastimes like reading, all kinds of things, from the sesame street magazine to some hard cover books depicting the wild life in the african continent or novels like "jaws"; I could read anything... Never had that much the company of someone I could call Friend, like already other person has said, I've a lot of accquaintances, but nobody that really knows me. I guess that's why I have to start all my conversations on MSN, and I only get monosyllabes for reply.
What a bunch of incompetent people.

No, I'm the one who starts all the misunderstandings, because I never am what I appear to be and dissimulation has become my very existence. I want to stop, but, I, in truth, fear people (and find myself trying to analyse and compreend people - it's somewhat fascinating to me). I analyse and evaluate from the outside (the box) and this makes it hard for me to get involved with someone.

Hum, I guess not all answers come in the books one read in the teen years. I'm half knowledgeable, adult, old man and half crazy, naive young kid, all in one. And, yes, that makes me VERY hard to figure out, and all but unpredictable. And sometime I feel that I'm missing some big chunk of me, so now I'm incomplete. There's always been a gap between me & the people in my generation. I don't think that to be a bad thing, but occasionly it gives me some bad days.